Chapter 7

Well, I am not going to lie I haven't even read the chapter but after posting last week I decided to take personal time and act to empower myself to have what I NEED.  I NEED love, power, freedom, and fun.

I have my freedom now as I acted on my post from IPOH Chapter 6.  I am single.  Not only am I single but my Dad is seeking treatment today for his Alcoholism.  My life could be better right now as I feel I have so much to be happy about but I am having a hard time BEING HAPPY about it.  Anyway I didn't want anyone to think I just wasn't posting Chapter 7, I just am not ready to take the emotional roller coaster each of these chapters seems to take us on yet. I look at the book everyday and just can't bring myself to open it right now.  Between tackling what I needed to tackle for myself and my father tackling what he needed to tackle I just can't handle too much more right now.

Thanks to all of you for your support and wonderful comments you have left me.  It is hard to write about it because of fear that others will judge you.  However, as a class we have proved that theory wrong when each of us posts we give honest heartfelt feedback.  

Houston we have a problem... IPOH Chapter 6

A person I am having problems with is very near and dear to my heart.

Through reading this book I have learned that I have exhausted almost all the means suggested in here to get what I NEED from him.  

I have asked and pleaded and begged but the bottom line is I am not getting that commitment.  So... I examined myself to realize that this person is a great friend, best friend, but not one to be in a relationship with.  Right now it is a security blanket, I must let this security blanket go.  It will help me with my freedom, love, and power when I do so.

I do what I can alone, we have worked through many problems together, but this commitment issue is no going to go away.

I will be able to carry out "The Washington Post" in a more effective and efficient manner when I convince myself that a relationship is not what I need with this person right now.  I need freedom, happiness, love, and power. The only way to do that is to end the relationship. Therefore, I must let this security blanket go.

In all my spare time these are the changes I will make... IPOH Chapter 5

Alright, so I barely had time to read this assignment and comment on it, much less make the changes I need to make in my life.  I think I will make these my priorities over the winter break before starting a new semester at school.  As you can see it wasn't even posted on time...

Love

 I have plenty of it the question is do I give enough in return.  Right now I would say... no.  My family and friends love unconditionally but at times I neglect them.  This is the center for many of our lives and I need to focus more attention there.  This includes writing to my sister while she is away at school, going out occasionally with my sister at home, and having a family meal more occasionally with my parents.

Power

I feel I have enough power in my life, school, work, the gym, its all there.  

Freedom

More spare time would be nice, I just haven't found a way to create that yet, again something to be worked on during the winter break from school.  I do believe this will come easier because this is my last full time semester, I will only have three classes left after this semester.

Fun

I don't go out as often as I should but when I do I have fun.  More time with family may make this section come alive.

With the exception of fun my life seems to  be pretty balanced.  However, when I have the opportunity to have fun it generally is something that I cherish and can think about for the days and weeks to come.  The other three categories allow me to have fun as an everyday occurrence but I don't think it is in the sense that the book was trying to emphasize. 

This activity wasn't easy but here is a stab at it.

Love:

friends

family

work

gym

Power:

school

work

gym

Fun: 

friends

gym

Freedom:

work

gym

school